I’m not dead. I haven’t fallen off the face of earth. I haven’t changed my mind. Ok that’s a bit of what I haven’t been doing, now for what I have been doing: I’ve been moving on with my life. I moved into a loft apartment and out of the house I once thought I would grow old in. I took off my rings and haven’t looked at them since putting them in a drawer. I started to do things on my own and facing the world alone. And you know what, it can be a little scary out there but nothing I can’t handle. So far I’ve handled movers, car repair, furniture shopping and the maze known as parking at Logan. And I handled it all on my own. I was covered in bruises during the move but I learned to not pack boxes too heavy. The Service Manager at the car dealership did talk down to me a bit but I let it go in one ear and out the other. It is very easy to buy more than you pick up at Ikea, always check box weights and sizes and know your’s and your car’s limits. Logan’s Economy Lot 2 is right next to Terminal E, much easier to get to the other terminals than from the regular Economy Lot. For some reason Logan wants you to park in the boondocks instead.
I know I have real life lessons to learn. I know I have more fears to face. I know I will be scared at times but I have the inner strength to survive. And when I think I don’t, there is a voice that tells me I do.
Today I got the phone call from the lawyer. In 31 days we have a court date. I knew it was coming, I thought it would just be a sit down with the judge to discuss the agreement. My lawyer told me “If we have an agreement walking in, I will get you your divorce”. In 15 days we meet in my lawyer’s office. Me, My Lawyer, The Prince’s Lawyer and The Prince. I haven’t seen him since I moved out 3 months ago. Seeing his face scares me more than anything. The last time I saw him he looked at me with such a cold stare. I need to prepare myself to see that again. I need to prepare myself for the worse and hope for the best. Until then, I will keep moving on with life.
This fairytale is coming to an end. Now to see what happens when an Ex-Princess has to fend for herself. All I can say is I really miss my maids.
