Fairytales End » Moving http://fairytalesend.com A princess's journey into life after ever after isn't happy Wed, 20 Jan 2010 04:18:58 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.4 Moving On… http://fairytalesend.com/2009/10/moving-on/ http://fairytalesend.com/2009/10/moving-on/#comments Wed, 21 Oct 2009 01:49:38 +0000 Exprincess http://fairytalesend.com/?p=110 I’m not dead. I haven’t fallen off the face of earth. I haven’t changed my mind. Ok that’s a bit of what I haven’t been doing, now for what I have been doing: I’ve been moving on with my life. I moved into a loft apartment and out of the house I once thought I would grow old in. I took off my rings and haven’t looked at them since putting them in a drawer. I started to do things on my own and facing the world alone. And you know what, it can be a little scary out there but nothing I can’t handle. So far I’ve handled movers, car repair, furniture shopping and the maze known as parking at Logan. And I handled it all on my own. I was covered in bruises during the move but I learned to not pack boxes too heavy. The Service Manager at the car dealership did talk down to me a bit but I let it go in one ear and out the other. It is very easy to buy more than you pick up at Ikea, always check box weights and sizes and know your’s and your car’s limits. Logan’s Economy Lot 2 is right next to Terminal E, much easier to get to the other terminals than from the regular Economy Lot. For some reason Logan wants you to park in the boondocks instead.

I know I have real life lessons to learn. I know I have more fears to face. I know I will be scared at times but I have the inner strength to survive. And when I think I don’t, there is a voice that tells me I do.

Today I got the phone call from the lawyer. In 31 days we have a court date. I knew it was coming, I thought it would just be a sit down with the judge to discuss the agreement. My lawyer told me “If we have an agreement walking in, I will get you your divorce”. In 15 days we meet in my lawyer’s office. Me, My Lawyer, The Prince’s Lawyer and The Prince. I haven’t seen him since I moved out 3 months ago. Seeing his face scares me more than anything. The last time I saw him he looked at me with such a cold stare. I need to prepare myself to see that again. I need to prepare myself for the worse and hope for the best. Until then, I will keep moving on with life.

This fairytale is coming to an end. Now to see what happens when an Ex-Princess has to fend for herself. All I can say is I really miss my maids.

]]> http://fairytalesend.com/2009/10/moving-on/feed/ 0 Looking for a New Castle http://fairytalesend.com/2009/06/looking-for-a-new-castle/ http://fairytalesend.com/2009/06/looking-for-a-new-castle/#comments Sun, 21 Jun 2009 01:09:11 +0000 Exprincess http://fairytalesend.com/?p=104 It’s been awhile, I know, sorry about that, things have been slow going. The stress levels in the condo castle are almost to a breaking point. I know I need to get out before we completely distroy any relationship we might have left. The Prince has taken his I don’t know how to deal with you attitude and turned it into a I don’t want to be a civil human being to you. I know it’s the stress of the divorce and the lack of a job beating him down, but simple common courteous isn’t that hard. I t got to a point where I had to relay messages through the lawyers to the person 10 feet away from me and then he got pissed at me for doing it. I think it was the content of the message more than the delivery method “Get a job or put the condo on the market.” He says back to me “Where am I supposed to go” and I know that’s not my problem. I need to move out of here, I know this.

So I’ve been looking at apartments. Saw one a few months ago, reasonable distance from work, great space, price was exactly at my upper limit. Saw a place yesterday, once again beautiful, great community, very close to work, the only apartments I would fit in, too much money. Saw an apartment building today. Every unit they showed me was beautiful and I could afford even the three bedroom, which I outright said “This is too much room for me.” I narrowed it down to two units there that I really liked, really I think one is better than the other but that’s what second showings are for. The problem, it’s as far from work as I am now, just in the opposite direction. I would be happy to suffer a 45 minute commute to smile when I come home though. Tomorrow I see my father and we will talk these over. He wants to see any place I might want to rent first. Check things like security, the neighborhood, etc. You know all those things that fathers worry about when their little girl is involved. With luck I could be leaving a deposit and an application with them this week and have a move in date as soon as I want.

That’s the good news, the bad news: Telling The Prince. This will not be pretty. I do not expect him to be happy about this, I do not expect him to help me move, I do not expect anything from him. Unfortunately his attitude of late is making it easier for me not to care about his feeling. That is one of the hardest things for me to do. I care about everyone. If you are family or friend or perfect stranger, I care about your feelings. Even if you have hurt me, I care. It’s gift or a flaw depending on how you look at it. But this man I married, who has been part of my life for 28 years, has managed to get me to be apathetic toward him. Do I not care at all? No, I do still care some, but lately I have been putting my own feelings first and I don’t think he likes that. Oh well, not my problem. Someone has to put me first, might as well be me.

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