Posted in Present Day on Dec 8th, 2008
Maybe it’s the holiday, maybe it’s because I hate hurting people, maybe I’m scared to be happy… who knows but right now I am more unsure of myself than I have been in a long time. I know I’m guilty of hiding my feelings to protect him, little by little I have been letting [...]
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Posted in Present Day on Nov 24th, 2008
It’s my own personal demons I’m not so sure about. As I look at the mess my marriage has become and I think about calling it quits fears jump out at me when I least expect it. I could be enjoying the day then out of nowhere one hits. I start to panic and dwell [...]
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Posted in Present Day on Nov 13th, 2008
How did it get this messed up? When I look back on it now, I wonder if I got married for the wrong reasons. Maybe I shouldn’t have forced the issue, maybe I should have let him make the decision on his own. I know I was feeling pressure. 6 months after renewing the romance my father [...]
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